Yeah, I'm gunna give this site a break for a while.

I know I just got back and everything, but honestly, I'm not "connected" with you guys anymore.
And it's not that people have been "away" or working hard at art school. I'm not hurting for journal comments or anything.

I just feel the disconnect really strong. The only thing we all had in common was that we were comic makers in high school.
Now I'm not "making" comics, most of my peeps from here are in art school, and we're all, most of us, in college now.

Of course I feel bad when I miss out on somethings. But at this point I have nothing I need to say to you guys. I don't care if you read my journals or not. Honestly I could be writing a freakin' daily personal diary or something.

I'm producing NOTHING, so I want to take a break . At least until I've got something to really say.

This is why I can't take anything seriously. I get it from my father. He's singing Micheal Jackson's "Smooth Criminal", and instead of the "smooth criminal" part, he says "You've been hit by, you've been hit by...Smaaalll moving car~"
*squints at him*
That's just great, Dad.
I can't even enjoy a mushy moment in a romance movie. A while ago my Dad got in the habit of right after the romantic scene would end, he would make a farting noise with his mouth.
It' like:
Girl: I love you.
Boy: I have always loved you.
Girl:Then be mine forever.
Boy: I had no other intention!
*smooch*

My Dad: Pppptthh~

*facepalm*

And now me and my sister always do that. It feels wrong if we don't. That's how you can tell bad chemistry in a movie. If Monica or I make farting noise, it's BAD chemistry XD

So if you get frustrated that I can't take anything seriously, just know it's in my blood and I cannot escape it.

Speaking of serious stuff, enjoy RoboGeisha:


As I said to my friend Jeff, this movie is epic in all the wrong ways.

Oh, do you like my new journal layout? XD
It's so preeetttyyy and random.  Will alter later XD

I really just sorta want to get started with several series. SahdowKaoru15 on DA asked me what I wanted for my BDay, and I told her fanart of my characters (cause I didn't get not a single Rioka fanart last year, he's like my most simple freakin character...okay whatever...).
She said "just give us something to work on xDD"

She's absolutely right. I'm gunna go and doodle some of my character chibi's.
It'll inspire me to draw them full blown.
I love my characters, and I really want you guys to know them.
But I'm just so lazy about getting them out of my head.

I think my mission will be at least 10 characters a month, until I have revealed them all.
Okay, gunna watch a movie with my sister now! MOONFRUIT!!

Can you believe Chara is 40?!
I was listening to a song by her and m-flo (I thinks thats his name XD), and it was really cute.
I remember her music from KamiKaze Girls' soundtrack.

Ugh, why can' t I love musicians closer to my age?
The Pillows are all like in their late 40's. It's ridiculous. And they smoke up a storm, so they'll prolly get cancer and that'll be freaking sad.
I try to get into musicians that aren't so mainstream, but I can't help it. I'm not "into" music.
I'm a disgrace to teenagers everywhere.
I try to find musicians that have music that I'll hear and it'll be like magic, and I'll want all their music. But I haven't found them yet.

And I want young musicians who I can grow with. I love the Beatles, but their dead. I love rock, I'm not a fan of scream. I never have instances where I want to hear scream. I like cute but not whiney. I hate all K-pop and J-pop boy band music. I've never heard a song by any of their bands that I thought had true meaning behind it, nor that any of the members could actually REALLY sing.
I like Epic High. Their music is great. They're a K-rap band. Although on their CD where it says "genre" it says "just music".
Hmmmm... so yeah. Just trying to find my life soundtrack, you know?

It's so weird, because RIGHT after I posted a blog on myspace, with me all "I'm not coming back til I have a job!!!" Mom came in my room, saying she had a friend who wanted to hire me. The job is....unusual, for a teenager, thats for sure. It's like I'm a well paid business telemarketer XD
It was kinda right on time.

I want to start packing my things and move out, but of course I have to wait .... AND the other roomate who I haven't found yet.

Oy.....
I always get so inspired by everyone's comics. Summer is the best, cause everyone has time to UPDATE~
Makes me wanna work on my crap. Like, draw more of my own characters and stuff. I feel like, when I draw it's not realistically accurate, and I get discouraged.
I don't know. I'll just do my best and keep drawing. And work! So I can afford my new laptop.

Everytime I get on this site, I get tired of seeing my template. If only to adjust and completely modify the css, I will work for a new laptop!

I guess if Michael Jackson had died alone somewhere and I had never found out, I would never care about it.
I was more sad when Heath Ledger died. I think its far more sad when working artist die. I felt like crying when I realized he wouldn't be there to recieve his "Best villian" award.
But I digress. The death of a artist like Micheal or Ledger is sad none the less
It just doesn't have the same impact when you've lost someone you love.
May they rest in piece. My Mom-Mom is cooking you some soul food in heaven.

LOL, it's so hard to be opinionated.

That's the second time in my life someone said I was flamming after stating my opposing opinon.
God the interwebs is so funny.

At first I was all mad and steamed up, and my feathers were all ruffled.
Then they say that I'm flamming them XDDDDDDDDDDDD

Pfft- Caps = flammage

XD

OHHHH, INTERWEBS!!!
HOW DID YOU GET SO FUNNNEHHH???

It's like these people can't take criticism or something.
I'm not allowed to disagree with you? That's flamming? Am I to be reported?
Well, if he reports me and I get banned, dammit, I ain't coming back.

Shit, artist getting banned for posting their own work, and for making llama journals. I don't have a chance.
The DA authorities aren't the brightest.

Screw DA, it's caused me alot of frustration in the past year and a half.
I can live my life once it's gone. And I like MB better anywho. It's cuter and the admins have working brains.

I have got to get a therapist or something.
I'm tired of figuring out life's many secrets on my own.

*sigh*

I just feel like all this year I have been disappointed ALOT.
Every time I get excited about something, or I plan something it NEVER goes like in my head.

Like Graduation, or having Monica's birthday party a day earlier, or designing that shirt for Project Graduation, or my entire senior year.
It was littered with disappointment.
I think maybe it's me not planning well enough, or not trying hard enough to have my way. Like with TriMajoring at PJC. I didn't fight enough to do it.  I didn't say, "I want to do this!" I did'nt even mention it because I did'nt want to sound stupid.  I just feel like I'm never gunna get my way.
I'm just too passive outwardly. I need to be more assertive. Tell people what I want and feel proud about my descisions instead of waivering and wondering if I made the right descision, or letting others make them for me.  I hate that about myself.
In my heart, and sometimes online, I'm tough, and I don't let people tell me what to do or think. But I'm not tough or brave at all in real life. I can hardly make friends with people who intimidate me. I'm such a punk, it hurts.

I never do anything brave or important. I never TRY hard enough. I sorta just plan and look to see if what I want to happen will happen.
Like getting a job, or getting my license. I blame it on not having the money for insurance, but I'm not asserttive with my parents when I tell them my plans. And since I never show them that I can work hard they have no proof that I'm worth anything, or that I can make my plans happen.

Ramona= quiet, shy, lazy, slow, prude, has no life, floater

Thats the message I'm sending to the world.  Thats not who I am, dammit.

Ramona wants to= Brave, tough, responsible, dependable, mature, leader

I need to get out there, stop being a lazy bum, and become an adult.

*headdesk*
I'm sorry if I'm bitchy or rude to any of ya'll. I'm just stressed out cause I don't have a working computer, and I have to use my Wii to do crap.
I'm just sitting at home, poor and bored.
If I could drive, I wouldn't mind not having a computer, because I could LEAVE and go DO something.
But I'm loosing it in here. I need to get a JOB, so I can at least have somewhere else to go to during the day.

I'm really starting to get George Bridgman's head construction concept.

It actually makes it easier to draw varying faces.
I mean, we can all name an artist who's characters look EXACTLY the same, but with different hair styles. When I was just discovering anime, I would trace over a base face I'd drawn to create new characters XD
And even really amazing artist have difficulty showing variation in facial structure. Like Jennifer Lee Quick, I LOVE her stuff, and I love her comic "Offbeat", but ALL her characters have the same pudgey NOSE. You could call it "style", and I totally recognize her for it, but variation is important, and maybe even fun.
G.B. just makes it easy. I can give Phil high cheek bones, instead of wondering where in the story I should emphasize it.
Like in a shojo, how they have the characters repeat OVER AND OVER how attractive a certain guy is, they try to hypnotize the readers. And even if whoever the guy is looks ordinary, you start believing he's sorta cute, too.

It'll be like "Those high cheek bones" "the boy with the high cheek bones" "His high cheek bones are his best feature"
XD And even if NOWHERE in my art does Phil even REMOTELY look like he has HCBs, the readers already know it's a fact.

Manga magic, I says!!
We're all witches, thats all there is to it.

I love realism more and more every day *sigh*

I hate you, Apple. I hate you so damn much.

Okay, here's the deal:
After my financial aid stuff was taken care of, I was going to get a 10g loan for housing and supplies. I only need about 5g for housing (thanx salie mae) and 5g for supplies.
Of those supplies was about $1,600 for a 17inch Mac book pro. $2000 for traditional supplies, and $1,400 for other digital supplies.

Ugh, those losers at apple knocked the price up to $2500.
That's ultimately more than HALF my supply fund.
*facepalm* Why is Apple so cruel to it's believers?
Even with a student discount it's a laughable $2,450!
It's like, thanx for that 50 bucks, apple, now I can pay for laundrey for the semester.

So uncool. I'm just gunna purchase the original 17inch Mac book pro off ebay.
I hope apple doesn't sell a single laptop this year. Aren't we in a recession? Jeez. Ppl prbly going hungry to get a new updated Mac book pro.

It's so pointless, tho.
My friend Asa has an original Mac book, and says it's outdated DX
Duuude, your laptop is 3yrs old, mine is 8, as far as I'm concerned its up to date.
OH yay! accidental rhyming!

Ugh, how can we afford to stay loyal to Mac, when PC's prices are like 1/2 of a Mac?

People seriously have NO imagination. It's really sad. They ask, "Can animals feel regret?" and all these smarty-farty losers have to over analyze the fucking question, "Well, the animal brain is..."
Oh,. shut the fuck up. Any body who has ever owned a puppy that pooped on the floor once, and saw the puppies sad pathetic eyes, knows the answer to this question.
GOD, why couldn't I have been born am animal? Human beings are such idiots. I think animals are WAY smarter than we think they are. Certainly smarter than us useless waste of space humans. I mean, if they revealed to us their intelligence, we probably wouldn't be able to handle it. We're too dumb.

We're pretty much useless as far as our Earthly purpose serves. I mean, the big "B" book says were here to take care of the Earth. Alot of us don't even fucking believe that were DOING anything to affect the global warming cycle. It's really sad. I mean, were trying to recycle and stop eating beef, and take care of the Earth and a LARGE portion of us with immediate access to information and facts about global warming, aren't even trying to get the facts and understand and DO something about it.

You think I recycle and buy the $1 recyclable baggies because it's fun (and the bags are cute)? 
It's like....how could you ignore possibly the  greatest threat to our near future?
You don't have to be a scienctist to understand that our actions have serious adverse effexcts on the world around us.
Our parents couldn't do anything about global warming. They didn't have access to the information like we do.
The facts are a click away.
It's just SAD, that there are people who haven't even tried to understand that honestly say that they don't think humans are affecting global warming.

Sorry, whenever I get the talking about animals I start talking about how retarded us humans are. I look forward to the speedy inialation of our race. Hopefully I'll be reborn as a polar bear, and there will still be some ice caps left for me to chill on, or I'll evolve and grow gills. Won't that be nice?

Grow an imagination, you fucking tards.

My dog licks a wound he makes on me (scrathcing, not biting) because he is saying sorry. "I didn't mean it" he says with those big eyes. Animals are smarter than us, they don't reveal this to us because were too rediculous to handle it. So I don't see why they wouldn't regret.

I have been told how "great" the programs were at some schools, such as the art institutes. I would work very hard to get into the school and then I discovered Channel Frederator Raw, where I was told by professionals in the 2-D animation business that I should steer clear of the art institutes if I was looking to do traditional animation.

I was wondering how good is the Animation program is for people looking to do traditional 2-D animation?
I could talk to my admissions counselor, but I can't trust whether or not she knows more about the program then what she's payed to tell me. I don't think she'd lie, but I don't think she would know the difference between success in 2D and success in 3D.